HEHEHE…i could laugh my head off with the fact that i HARDLY update this blog……and now i have a whole new one…with the colours and the pictures and the dots!..
but yeah….
http://geethafemino.blogspot.com/
im REALLY intending to update this one regularly.hehehe…its soo pweeettyyy!!
I’ll stop with the "i SHOULD"s…
so College…from STPM…has been a rather nice change,i think a very large factor has to be my wonderful classmates!!amazingly i was the "newbie" and took such a short time to get used to all of them..
everyone is off to university and colleges by now…the idea of an UNIVERSITY…gosh seems amazingly appealing…and trust me i wud have flown out to sarawak if my sister didnt chain me up to the chair!
BUT of course, i think if i ACTUALLY understood the course i got, i wud be more insistent to go!and unsurprisingly enuf, a lot of my other friends who did so much better than i did, got courses that they didnt understand too! SHOCKING! frens who did EXTREMELY well did get their first choice, friends who did MODERATELY well got courses just the same with frens who did NOT SO well…i guess thats a good enough deal..?
So College it is for me!i’m not complaining really, just very diff from wat schools have taught us..the whole academic writing is killing everyone!but in due time, we wud all get used to it im sure…
gosh i just realised, nothing has been going on enuf for me to go on?..urrgghh..i need to get out more!…lol..
SO in light of recent events,a SERIES of event,i got inspired once again!
so this girl, a friend of a friend, and i hate to say this, but she’s a total SLUT! the BIGGEST! and i HATE her to the core!MAINLY because she wears clothes that i NEVER would! she says things in public that i shut my ears to! and she makes it pretty clear that she LOVES boys! If you ask me, thats TOTALLY unacceptable, cause us girls, we don’t do that, we CANT!rite?
Now imagine this person, being held down one day, against the concrete floor of some unknown apartment,by a man she gave no consent to do that do her, as he unzips his pants and shoves his "manliness" into her. As she screams in pain, and begs him to stop, and he slaps her thinking thats the way we bitches like it. Lots of pain and lots of cum. He doesn’t stop, as he violates her over and over,and she’s too tired now to scream anymore so she just lays there, hoping it would stop. And he experiments on her, things his wife would say NO to,he now has a guinea pig that LIKES it. Be it with or without her will.
Now, he being the very kind gentleman he is, decides to let her go (again, this is INDEED hard to believe but I’m trying to make a point see?) and she gets away, with her vagina torn so badly , and her uterus damaged so badly with all his experiments. Then there’s the trauma, she doesn’t laugh as much, is depressed all the time thinking maybe it would have been better if she didn’t live through the ordeal after all, and now she’s just afraid of EVERYONE.
So is her rape justified?
Could there really be a connection between (yeah she was wearing her tube top that exposes her "i-want-that-flat-tummy-too" mid-riff and had on her little black mini skirt) her clothing and her rapist wanting to do that to her? Could it be one of the reasons? SHOULD she have thought about wearing something she would never normally wear so that she WOULDN’T be raped? Could wearing something less exposing saved her?
The answer to all those questions should be a nice firm NO!
Girls, ladies, women all around the world should not be made to dress up based on something that had nothing to do with them in the first place. Well OTHER than the fact that they were the VICTIMS here! So yeah,men get aroused, I’m sure a lot of them do, but not all are rapists are they? So there must be a difference! I get aroused too, by unbuttoned bollywood stars-look alike that walk past, but it doesn’t make me wanna force them down and RAPE them! The thought alone DISGUSTS me!
The moment we tell ourselves that we must not wear revealing clothes because it might be a factor for some sicko behind the lamp post to wanna rape us, we are telling ourselves that the problem, lies with us too! That we actually might have something to do with this heinous crime that have been forced onto us!
IT’s about POWER and the feeling of SUPERIORITY. The idea of having someone succumb to your every desire, to having the power to make her do whatever you want. For someone to THINK that, to wanna DO that, tell me that it isn’t their fault COMPLETELY? I might like to sleep around with my friends, but i do it with CONSENT! with MY consent! When you come up to me and i say NO! cause i don’t like the way your hair is parted in the middle, does that give you the right to TAKE it anyway? IT is NOT YOURS to take nor was it, nor will it EVER BE! IT is MINE and WITHOUT my consent, i should not be FORCED to give it to you!
Recent UK anti-rape campaigns targets men getting consent, instead of just telling women to keep their legs shut. Many campaigns are focused on the behaviour of women, saying that they should play a part in stopping rapes from happening too.
If CLOTHING had anything to do with men raping, then how do we explain the 6 year olds? The babies ? The women in Pakistan?
A woman is raped every two hours and gang-raped every eight hours in Pakistan, according to the country’s independent Human Rights Commission.
Sexiness, is so subjective is it not? Some people get aroused by FEET, some by FINGERNAILS, so what do we do then? Its definitely not WRONG, if buttons does it for you but that does not mean that every girl SHOULD start covering up their buttons in case they set it free,this "wild" fantasy of yours.
I’m not saying EVERYONE should go around walking in mini skirts, that they should sleep with anyone and anything, I’m saying that the choice should be up to us! I don’t wear miniskirts cause i feel my thighs are way too big and flabby, so if someone feels so good bout herself that she actually enjoys the way she feels in a miniskirt, she should by all means put in on, i wish i felt that way so I’d at least have that option, regardless if I would wear them or not! You only are beautiful when you FEEL beautiful, its so much a question of being YOU! Nobody dresses up in the morning thinking about getting raped! So yeah, women should have the freedom to express herself the way she perceives herself!
TO say, to imply that dressing might be a factor, is taking away some blame from the person committing the real crime, however little, it does take it away…and that has to be unfair!
**descriptions of certain events are mainly for "making-a-point" reasons!**
If you feel you want another liberal-know-nothing head to smash,do visit dearie jia hui’s blog…
So…exactly um 48hours to D-Day!And I’m blogging?well…let’s just say I’m inspired!
STPM,its simply ridiculous…but ohhhh isu sensitif??..its the same old story if i were to get into it i guess…gosh!LIFE…quite insane to think that right now,well its only STPM!…few 2-hour papers that about to determine er,my LIFE? its quite crazy ,all i wanna do is blow up the MPM or the PPD or something..ANYTHING…EXAMS DRAIN ME! My future ACTUALLY depends on these flimsy pieces of papers?!?! and an unfair future,i go through all of this for THAT?…but here i am…1 and a half years later….and they’re depressing..and morbid…waking up in the morning of ur first day…looking…at…col…yeah…its depressing….every major exam and i think bout the same old thing….
We’re all made for BIGGER BETTER things!!..not a world confined to the limited illustrations of our biology textbooks!!!..hmmm….a singing superhero touring the world to end starvation?or finally get some serious work done with my forever-dream of finding V!…
One thing’s for sure..THIS is NOT LIFE!!…19..so lets say i get hit by a bus at 50…that leaves me only…errrr…..31 years???..to go bungee jumping,and develope super powers and hold picket signs in front of parliaments,and go to prison for some "isu keselamatan negara" crime,and ooohhhh…..crossing abbey road,and stalking SOME celebrity(GOTTA!!) and and…goshh!thats not including the 5 years or so for my oh-so-valuable degree and then working and saving the cash?…i would probably be 30? 35?..thats leaves me 15years…
i guess its the frustration talking…er,typing…the long hours of pengajian am must be taking over…i suppose its only for another 3weeks!after that…wow…FREEDOM!..well temporary freedom..but freedom all the same…but still…i should be able to just drop out and join the Cirque du Soleil?if i try really hard my tongue can touch my nose!! but the point is…i should be able to!!!…instead of going through this endless crap of exams!!
or be pepper…darling pepper…wonder how interesting her life is…having it her way all the time…sleeping,fed,people calling her sayang and baby and "guuuchhiiiiijjuuuccciiiibboooo"…..car rides,her toy burger…and she looks pretty contented!..everythings an adventure…the space under my bed…the plastic cover still stuck under the sofa…and PAPER,ooohhh PAPER…the house is a whole new world of discoveries…with the mess its in..its no surprise really!everything’s an adventure for her…
STPM….NOT an adventure!!….its a mean conspiracy!!..its the "logical" way to make sure things are under control….oooppsss…"isu sensitive" again?…
well December 4th…hooorrrraaahhhhaaaahhhaaaa???…
as lousy as i feel…cant wait for it…!..3weeks time…..gosh!
and now…pengajian am…i LOATHE..u heard me..i LOATHE umm….memorising!!…25chapters of the mysteries of the elections(why bother?teach the politicians,and THEN me!), and the constitution and their weird laws and their..ohh my favourite ISU-ISU SENSITIF!…and the judicial system…seriously…nothing seems to work here anyway…and biology,oh sweet biology..its interesting i guess,everything is..before ur FORCED to memorise the definitions and each and every single word?..i guess it helps when ur working in some world-renowned science lab,ad someone walks up to you and say"watsthedifenitionof"water potential,you have exactly 3seconds or you’re FIRED!"…yeah!thanks a lot!
we really know how to make EDUCATION well…sucky!….but I’ve made it so far (i dunno how..but her i am!)…so i guess my dull-routine-gonna-be-hit-by-a-bus life goes on…!or does it?
hmmm…its weird….how i ended up well…in High School!..everywhere u look..its only boys….girls are like a rare species?….but yeah..i cant say that well they’re TOTAL barbarians..heehhehe…its pretty much like every other school…just well…it somehow cant beat a co-ed school…i mean…doesnt it get boring with just boys?…i dunno…and umm…well its rare to find those "not typical" boys…in a boys school….from what i’ve seen…there are nice boys….definitely.. in fact…with all my scared-ness of going into form 6 in the first place…i have to say..i think i’ve found well a pretty nice bunch of friends…gotta say that they’re different from friends i used to have but wat was it again "you cant expect all five fingers to be the same"?…lol…i’m really not sure if that’s an indian proverb but yeah..being different….its a little tough i suppose…pitching the idea of straight men supporting gay rights to boys that clap and cheer mockingly everytime a guy that sways his hip more than his allowed to? These boys seem to have a lot of rules that i had no idea about! But yeah, i mean i’m not saying EVERY BOY is like that but judging on the way things are, MOST are! But i suppose its human, we’ve been the way we have been for wel a while so to want change and say it, doesnt mean it’s gonna happen overnight….its a process….
Till……………..
wow…cant believe its been such a long time since i last wrote anything…seeing that well i always have sooooo(too?) much to say!!!….but yeah…well in light of umm…..recent events….i supposed ive realised that well…life is too short to not ruffle a few or a lot of feathers along the way!!…sooo…welll….yeah…..lets hope the thoughts keep popping into my head……
I found this really interesting poem! I know not ALL mothers are like that but some are! And heck, some PEOPLE basically are too! I recently told someone that i dint have another half of me walking around somewhere and boy were they shocked! I mean they were genuinely shocked like it was an universal rule to be "attached" !! …. ENJOY!
You silly cow, you’re just too dumb
Come on, Fatso, get off your thumb
And clean this house, now wash that dish
I’ll never die, but you can wish!
Your duties you shall never shirk
Don’t dare throw up, it just won’t work!
You can’t fool me, you’re not that sick
I’ve seen them all, your stupid tricks
Get up off your wobbly ass
And get to work, develop class
I’m telling you, you’ll never marry
If over supper you would tarry
And let the dirty clothes pile up
And never wash a coffee cup!
I swear, I just don’t understand!
Don’t you WANT to have a man?
To make him smile, you must be thin
And dress this way, these clothes are IN
He’ll love you more if you keep house
And don’t speak up, just be a mouse
And if he leaves things on the floor
Then clean them up, don’t be a bore
Or nag him much about his money:
Less with vinegar, more with honey!
If he brings friends to watch the game
Just remember, be the same
Until you give him sons by birth
You can’t be sure of what you’re worth.
So listen, Daughter, if you’re smart
Just do this and he won’t depart!
And once you’ve got him, keep him fast:
Aways think of yourself last.
You’ll see, then he’ll be good to you
And maybe even speak sweet, too
As though you were as good as him
But watch out, dear, it’s all his whim.
But sweetly smile, accept your place
And all his anger shall erase.
If you’re quiet, and cook his meal,
Then you can hide, not have to feel.
The bruises, though, they’ll stay awhile
So cover up and keep your smile.
Don’t get ideas in your head
You still must have him in your bed
I’ll tell you this, dear, don’t complain
Your father and I were just the same.
It’s finally happened!! Amnesty International is now in KAJANG!!
We’ve set up a kajang local group, just this 14th of January. We had a nice and small meeting in Sugar Bun Kajang!! They are only 4 members so farand Cecil from the AI office in Pj came to help out and get us starting off. We really have to thank her for taking the time off to help us and come all the way, even when she was getting engaged the next day!! (congrats!!)
Anyway, so we’ve decided that the next meeting can only really be better if everyone invited more people!
So i’d juz like to say that the next AI meeting will be in Sugar Bun Kajang on the 11th of February at 7.30 pm. So if u guys would like to come and just check it out, just drop by!! Word of advice though, you might want to have ur dinner or tea or something to eat first, the food isnt that good!!
Anyone from anywhere is more than welcomed!! Any walks of life!! We’ll juz get started with something small, letter-writting and stuff. Then maybe and hopefully later, we can have fund-raising events like a jumble sale of something! Anyone with any problems, that in some way and any way dealt with the violation of your right, can come and share your problems with us and then our Conviener can direct you to the head office and get you in touch with somebody that might be able to help!
And in the future, we’re hoping that we’ll be able to organise some talks and events ! Get some people to talk to the public and all!
So if any of you are intersted, just email me or something or just let me know and if anything changes i’ll try to let you know!!!
Hope to see you there!!
I finally found a job! Yeah JH, i wanted those kind off jobs too, but UNFORTUNATELY they were all in KL. I’ve got to admit besides the experience,i simple just need CASH! So the whole traveling to KL everyday and spending even more money just wasn’t appealing.
So finally, i found a job - low paying but nearby! Probably the same amount I’ll be getting if i had a 700 ringgit job in KL,minus the whole transportation fee.
Working in TUPPERWARE, isn’t THAT bad i guess. I thought it’ll be like "easy money". Sitting there and just looking at plastic containers and entertaining the OCCASIONAL customer. Boy was i wrong! Who’d ever know that TUPPERWARE was the Bandar Teknologi Mid Valley. It certainly seemed like it.
It’s really busy!!! I think I’m working for a distributor?…or something. My boss-lady (who asks me to clean the window n stuff) gets all these Tupperware products from the HQ and then Tupperware dealers in Kajang come to her to get stuff for their customers(i think?), or something like that. But the thing is, they’re there everyday which means they get orders—DAILY!! And some have orders over a thousand ringgit! It’s only my third day of work and I’m totally amazed!!
The nice thing about this job is the hours. I still have time to have my tea when i get back and watch all prime time TV!!! The hard thing is the stupid TUPPERWARE names! Seriously, they all sound the same and look the same! "Modular MM .." "Square Round Set"…What the heck is that?
And when it gets busy, everyone is running every where looking for stuff and all and that’s when you REALLY don’t want to mess up! As far as experience goes,i think I’m kinda learning this whole customer-worker relationship! And of course employer-worker.The latter isn’t as much fun. It’s the idea of working for someone,THE MAN—-following every single thing! Being so routine, OBEYING!! It’s a little frustrating sometimes, especially when you don’t get the REASONS behind the whole RULE. But "the man" in my case isn’t that bad i guess, i really cant say for certain yet!
It’s getting more and more tiring. Becoming more like SCHOOL or even worse, WORSE THAN SCHOOL!! I thought the only thing worse than school is listening to En.Jamunggi 27/7 at home TOO. The hours are longer and it’s more work, DUH! You’re getting paid! Thing i RARELY do, I’m doing NOW. Wiping the glass door in the morning and then wiping it IMMEDIATELY with a news paper so it doesn’t leave a stain and having lunches ALONE. A plus of the latter is that i think I’m almost done with a book in just three days!
The most amazing thing is, i find myself unconsciously recommending TUPPERWARE products to people! I think I’m really into TUPPERWARE. They have not bad stuff!! Some cool looking things too. I’m definitely getting some kind off TUPPERWARE before i leave(i get a discount!).
I’m still getting used to 2006. Saying "ohh yeah I’m starting school next year..errr..this year i mean", it happens all the time!
Anyway new year’s eve went well!! Spending it in Cherating with my cousins was a blast!! Guess it’s back to normal daily-routine things now!Sitting at home, being a total couch-potato while all my other friends are starting college and stuff. It sure sounds a lot more interesting than whatever I’m doing right now…. A whole new world of "college-people" and "college-studies".
Looking for a job can be really frustrating! They put up big signs saying there’s a vacancy and then when you finally build up the guts to go and ask, they say they want a Chinese female or a bumiputra. And then there’s the whole rejection part. See, I’m really new at this and well being rejected isn’t really my cup of tea!
And most job, like they have preference…."female and single". Promoters are expected to wear short skirts to work and SOME make up. Gosh!! My ideal job right now is working at a really cool music store or a book store! But i think I’m not really in a position of choosing my NOW dream job.
I think I’m at the near-desperate stage in getting a job! All these images of a hand phone and mp3 player and my license! They’re driving me crazy! I just really want a job!
